the trouble with late nights, is that it really gives way to over-thought. thinking of all the things i should be doing, or should have had the time to do during the day, but didn't. late nights give you the space to plan all the things for tomorrow. add a little andrew belle or boxcar rebellion and it truly makes one think: what can i do tomorrow? what will affect change in both my writing and personal life?
i have only made a few submissions to literary journals this year. life has happened. time for those has gotten pushed off time and again. doubt has crept up. apathy waxes and wanes. so, what is it that makes "hitting the send button" so hard? i read for two literary journals. i recently read for a poetry contest. i am always thrilled to see the submissions rolling in. they inspire me. to read more. to learn. to be a better writer myself. to be proactive. but somehow, i am still staring at the growing stack of my work that needs a home (or at least an attempt at adoption) and the growing list of places i would love to submit.
what moves us to continually put ourselves out there? what moves us, at all? here is to tomorrow: and the hope and motivation it may bring. where do you find your push?
To praise the sun is to praise your own eyes.
Praise, the ocean. What we say, a little ship.
So the sea-journey goes on, and who know where!
Just to be held by the ocean is the best luck
we could have.
---Rumi, from Buoyancy